The actual quote from Alice in Wonderland is, “we’re all a little bit mad,” says the Mad Hatter. But in my case, I am still a little insane. I took last week off from Insanity for a couple of reasons. 1.) I was working on my dance moves with CIZE, and 2.) my workout mojo when MIA. Like completely left the building. The alarm would go off. I would turn it off and go back to sleep for another two hours.
New week, fresh start. Banged through Cardio Recovery and Cardio Power and Resistance. but this morning I hit a snag. Beachbody on Demand was on the blink. 503 messages everywhere. What’s a girl to do? I have had a lot on my mind the past couple of days, so I figured some yoga would clear out the cobwebs. I had 30 minutes so in went 21 Day Fix Extreme Yoga Fix. This is one of my favorite yoga programs, maybe because we do Royal Dancer (my favorite yoga pose). And then it hit me. I wasn’t getting bored with Insanity because of the workout. I was getting bored because it was longer than 30 minutes. Mind blown!
I have been doing 25-30 minute workouts for over year. I have conditioned my mind the all I need is 30 minutes. 40 minutes is not going to cut it for me. Every time I opened a video and saw that the clock started at 40, I would cringe. Sorry Insanity, but I have to let you go.
But that doesn’t mean that I am not insane. Bring on Round 2 of Insanity Max 30!!! All the craziness of Insanity in only 30 minutes. And this time, I’m going for it! No modifications.
It’s important to know what works and what doesn’t work for you. Don’t stay with something just because you feel you have an obligation to so do. If you don’t like, you are more likely to quit or not get the best results.
So find a workout, meal plan, or whatever to like and rock it out like a #BOSS. I know I will.
and not necessarily watching my diet, I started to notice that I was getting
fluffy in the mid-section, which tends to happen when one completely falls off
the diet wagon. But something wasn’t right. As soon as I ate something, my
stomach would become extremely bloated and start to hurt. I was waiting for
people to ask me when the baby was due.
|That alien thing on the left…. That’s Frankie!|
It got to the point that I was seriously considering talking to my
doctor about surgery. Like cut this out of my now considering it. I reminded
myself that surgery was that absolute and final option for riding my uterus of
its unwanted inhabitant. Although Frankie is not causing any physical
discomfort; no matter how clean I eat, how hard I work out, or how much cardio
I do, my stomach will not get flat thanks to Frankie. Which is extremely
disheartening especially in prime swim suit season.
and found a wonderfully helpful blog, shrunkfibroids.blogspot.com (how
appropritate). It is written by a woman who had fibroid surgery twice, only to
have them come back, so she decided to treat them naturally. With success. Her
battle plan, a vegetarian diet and vitamin supplement regime. Sounds simple
enough and since her fibroids shrunk, I figured why not give it a try. I have
nothing to lose. I quickly went to vitacost.com (the mecca of all things
natural) and filled my cart with my arsenal, most of which I had never heard of
before. And by the way, besides being extremely affordable (except for the $30 Whole Food vitamins), Vitacost constantly sends your promo codes for 10-12% off you next purchase or buy one Vitacost brand product, get one free. That’s how I scored a free bottle of DIM. Here’s my new vitamin regime and daily servings:
|The weapons of Frankie’s destruction|
My supplements were waiting for me when I got home, but I bought
the apple cider vinegar this weekend. And since Frankie isn’t getting any small
(yet), there is no time like the present to start my attack. So, as
recommended, I drank 1 ounce of vinegar with 6 ounces of water. A dirty martini
it is not. It is not good at all. Like gag me with a spoon disgusting. And warm water did not help. I’ll try it
tomorrow with some honey any let you know how that turns out. Maybe you get used to the taste…
dance skills! Beachbody is having a contest for the best video of people doing
the routine “You Got This”, from the amahzing Shaun T’s new workout program,
Cize. Cize isn’t even out yet, but you can preview this awesome workout on
Beachbody on Demand.
classes when I was kid. I did participate in Airband in college. But I am up to
the challenge of seeing how close Bianca can get to Beyonce by Saturday.
Saturday June 20th is the day that I will record and post my video for
the world to see in hopes of winning, wait for it… $1000. Yup a cool grand is
at stake and the grand prize winner gets $5000. That’s something to shoot for
right? Damn right.
putting myself out there to get over my fears. I have been stuck in neutral
with my Beachbody business for a while because of this little thing call the “What
if’s”. You know, what if I suck at helping people? What if no one responds to
my invites? What if I can’t make it through this work out? What if I can’t
stick to this meal plan? What if I don’t lose weight? What if everyone thinks I’m
nuts? What if people get sick of all my sweat selfies on Instagram? What if no
one reads this blog? Wait what!!! You are reading this right? Ok good! That’s
one what if crossed of the list!
going out on a limb and going all in with my business. Dancing like no one’s watching,
posting it on Facebook and hoping that someone likes it! Even if it is just one
person. What if no one likes it? So what!
Beyonce on. But that doesn’t mean that I won’t be getting a workout. Oh Honey!
Cize is cardio on fleek! You don’t realize that you are getting an amazing
workout until you realize that you are dripping with sweat! I even had to take
a couple of water breaks. Dancing is an awesome workout! And so much fun. Shaun
T breaks down and cues the moves incredibly well, that by the end of the
workout you can go all out and “Cize It Up” with attitude. Yes, girl!
need you to keep my accountable! If you don’t see my video on Facebook by 8pm
Saturday night, I am giving you permission right now to call me out on it! Text,
post on my Facebook wall, anything to make sure that video is up!
time to clear the what if bullshit out of my head and go all in!
am not talking about that. I do try to keep this blog somewhat PG except for
some four letter words sprinkled throughout just for flavor.
wants to admit that they suffer from it. It’s so much easier to put on a big
fake smile and go through the motions of your day until you can get home, curl
up in a ball under the covers, and cry. Sounds like I know a thing or two about
it. Yeah, because I have suffered with depression for years.
that last sentence wondering how I hid it so well. They will look back at
conversations and meetings to see if there were any signs that they may have
missed. Where there? Absolutely. But it’s easier to hide the pain instead of
fessing up to the truth. My depression wasn’t constant. It came in waves caused
by some stressful experience or situation. Project at work not going right,
lost my job and struggling to make ends meet, overworked and severely
underpaid, giving up hobbies that I loved because I couldn’t afford them, and
watching people have a good time when I couldn’t. Those have been triggers for
me. It would take every ounce of my being just function, to get out of bed and
go on like nothing was wrong. And very few people know the physical toll that
depression takes. It hurts. I remember how hard it was to physically sit up,
put both feet on the ground, get out of bed, and continue living.
been on medication, probably would have been prescribed something if I went to
a therapist, but that wasn’t an option because, at my lowest point, I didn’t
have the best insurance and I didn’t want people, even my family to know the
more mental anguish by telling people that you are not well. Letting people
know what is going on with you tends to lead to questions. What happened? Why
don’t you just move on? You are not depressed, get over yourself. Shake it off
and move one. If it were that easy, there wouldn’t be Prozac would there…..
But how to fight it? For me it has been working out and Beachbody. I found
Beachbody almost two years ago when it seemed like nothing was going right. I
was holding on to the promise of a pay raise, struggling not to make ends meet,
but to pull them closer together, and trying to keep some resemblance of a
normal life when everything seemed to be crumbing around me. I needed something
to take my mind off of what was not going right in my life, which felt like everything.
I needed something to do at home since hanging out was not an option. So for
some reason, I answered a random post on Instagram to join a Beachbody challenge
group. And it was the best decision I have ever made. Working out gave me a way
to get rid of my stress and I was a part of a group of people who were supporting
each other as we began our fitness journey. I had found my tribe.
to quit lots of times, but I felt like I would be letting everyone else down in
the group if I did. This was the first time I actually finished an entire
workout program and I wanted more. Now, I can’t go a day without working out. It
is my therapy. A good sweat makes me happy (crazy I know, but it works for me).
I wake up every morning and press play. Sometimes it is a struggle but I know
that if I don’t get my workout in, I will be in a bad mood for the rest day. And
if I have had a tough day at work, I’ll work out again in the evening just to
make everything right with the world.
everyone is different. If you are battling depression try to find something to
take you mind off of things. Go for a walk, listen to music, read a book.
Anything. And if things are really bad, please go see a professional for help.
journey and one that I am still on. I know that I will have good days and bad
days and will have to deal with my depression here and there, and that’s ok. But it’s like Dory says… “Just keep swimming.”
Well, 60 days has come and gone and I made it through Max 30! Like I said before, I knew Insanity Max 30 was just that, insane and I would have to push myself to make it through every workout. Overall Shaun T brought it. An intense cardio and strength training program that had me wondering why I would put myself through this torture. He yelled at me to move faster when I knew full well that if I moved any faster, I would pass out and have to be revived by the dog. But I am so happy that I pressed play and completed this program.
“Just make it through the 5 minutes and you can have your life-saving water and a chance to catch your breath!” Sometimes you have to play Jedi Mind tricks with yourself 🙂
Well there you have peeps. My Insanity Max 60 Adventure. On to the next big thing… The Broad Street Run!
I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. I was prepared for the complete butt whooping that was going to take place.I knew I was going to be pushed mentally and physically. I knew that it this was going to be the toughest workout that I had ever done. And that’s what I wanted. I wanted to push myself to the absolute limits. I wanted to see how far I could actually go. That’s why I bought Insanity Max 30 because I knew Shaun T would bring it. And he did.The first week it was all physical. There were times when I physically couldn’t do another rep because I would pass out or throw up. But after that, it was all mental. I knew that if I pushed past a certain point, I could make it to the end of the workout!
Cardio Challenge: This is basically a fit test. All cardio, all the time. Each interval is made up of three exercises that you repeat for three rounds and then you get a water break. I knew that if I could just get through the last interval, I would get a water break. Getting there was 95% mental.
Tabata Power: The first time I did this workout, I thought my arms were going to fall off. Well, at least I knew what part of my fitness I need to work on! Push-ups, push-ups and more push-ups!! I got through the leg exercises just fine, but anything having to do with my arms was pure torture, especially triceps dips. After the second workout, it turned into mind over body. I knew that if I could get through the 3rd interval without taking breaks, I could make it to the end of the workout. And that’s what I did!!
Sweat Intervals: And it’s time for cardio again!!! Who doesn’t like a good sweat fest. Even more intervals and some ab work too! An amazing intense cardio work out that will have to wondering, why am I doing this and when can I do it again!
Tabata Strength: Well, if Tabata Power wasn’t enough, Shaun T decides to turn it up a couple of notches with this program. The first time I saw the first exercise, I stopped and said out loud, “are you crazy?” This workout is no flippin joke. Just when I thought my arms and shoulders were getting stronger, Shaun T showed me otherwise. To be honest, there were times when I cried and grunted my way through some of the intervals. But I soon realized that I love Tabata style workouts! Just before I pass out, the interval is over! Yeah! There is a reason this program starts during week 3.
Friday Fight Round 1: Ok. If you thought Monday through Thursday was tough, just wait until Friday!!! For me, if I am doing a timed interval or circuit, I live for the water breaks. For the beginning of the week, water breaks are every five minutes. Rough, but doable. Not on Friday. For a 30 minute workout, you get three water breaks. For reals dude? And if that is not enough, Shaun T decides that it would be great idea to repeat the toughest exercises of the week during one program. Sheesh. Burpee lunges, squat kicks, Ab attack. triceps dips. All the good stuff wrapped up in a nice little package. Honestly, the hardest workout I have ever done! I am the first workout where I laid out on the floor when it was done!
Overall Thoughts: Shaun T said that he was going to kick my butt and he did. I knew going into this, before I even hit pay now on the Beachbody website, that I was in for a tough workout. This program pushed me mentally and physically harder than any other program that I have done before (and that includes T25). Obviously I learned that strength training is my weakness, especially triceps work, but I am getting better. My cardio has improved tremendously over the past month and most importantly, my mental toughness to get through and push past the pain has increased as well!
So who wants to see some pics???
Well…. 2014 has been on hell of a year! New job, new home, new friends, new business venture and new opportunities. You have grown by leaps and bounds, but you know that you have a ton of leaps ahead of you.
You have learned who to hold on to and who to let go. Explaining the letting go, or should I say not letting back in has been difficult at times, but you have remained steadfast in your decisions and I am proud of you. You are showing people exactly what you will and will not tolerate, and are better for it. Keep tightening your circles!
And what impressive circles you have!! From your young and hip Philly politicos to your Team Uproar FitFam to your BFFs below the Mason Dixon line, you have certainly surrounded yourself with positive people who only make your light shine brighter.
And remember Bianca, don’t let anyone dim your light. You have just learned to let it shine as bright as the sun and more. Now is not the time to revert back to your old ways, of making everyone else happy in spite of what your gut tells you. And what a mighty gut feeling you have. God has given you the unique ability to see the true nature of people. Who they are and their true intentions are. In 2015, develop this gift even more. Not only to protect yourself, but to be sure that you are in the right company.
2014 has been a major coming out party for you, and you still have your dancing shoes on! Who would have thought that you would jump out of your comfort zone to help people by becoming a Beachbody coach. And not only that, you found a way to get to Las Vegas for Summit!! Sure the business has not taken off as fast as you thought, but you know why…. Fear. Again, Bianca, fear has held you back. Fear of rejection, fear of criticism, fear of comments. Fear has stopped you dead in your tracks from reaching Emerald and even Diamond in 2014. But sweetie, you know 2015 is your year! You will be on stage at Summit in Nashville!
But Nashville is not your only travel destinations, my frequent flyer. Disney World, New Orleans, and maybe a Caribbean getaway are on you itinerary for 2015.
Oh the Places you will go Bianca in 2015! So go, be boldly you, punch fear in the face and attack your goals with reckless abandon.
This is your year!